他說,他還是會繼續去打工,如論如何都會讓我進重點高中,答應過的事情不可以食言。
我拿著畫離開了安晨的房間,我出去之後,他在我身後輕輕地關上了房門,然後從門裡傳來了嗚咽聲。
那一刻我忽然很想抱住他,告訴他不要哭,可是我已經失去了那樣的勇氣。
我靠著門,眼淚簌簌地往下掉。這時,我聽見房間裡傳來我們經常聽的那首歌:
“Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed。
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed。
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless, aching need。
I say love it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance。
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance。
It's the one who won"t be taken
Who cannot seem to give。”
我隔著門,一邊哭一邊輕輕地跟著唱,直至泣不成聲。
“And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live。
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed that with the sun"s love
In the spring becomes the rose。 ”
歌聲淹沒了我們的哭泣聲,我怕我會一時心軟衝進去,於是我狠下心來離開了那道門。
之後的日子裡,安晨很少再單獨跟我在一起,他的臉上也很少再有笑容。我們像什麼也沒發生過一樣地繼續生活著。
爸爸說,你看安晨真的是長大了,他以前老是欺負安寧的。
媽媽說是啊,都長大了呢。
是啊,我們都長大了。可是我不知道長大了就要麵臨各種各樣的難題,我一直都不承認我在長大。